Uncertainty and Uproar: how a reeling world and a disoriented church need God

So it appears that last Sunday's service was the final act of worship in school.

At the time we worshiped, though we were expecting to soon suspend services, we had not considered that Sunday 15 March would be our final gathering before the unsurprising decision of the Archbishops. In case you haven't heard, the Church of England has suspended public worship until further notice.

In the short term this has sent us into a tailspin of planning as we seek to adjust to life as the church without church.

On one hand, the world is reeling from the ever-intensifying Government measures introduced to slow the rates of infection, and protect our precious NHS from being overwhelmed. Though we are also reeling from an outburst of panic buying that has stripped bare many shelves in mainline supermarket chains. It's been hard to not feel like our leaders are making it up as they go along, while people are simply losing their heads.

Meanwhile, the church, sensing the opportunity that lays before us, is perplexed and uncertain about where to even begin. Do we focus on internal matters of liturgy and worship, or focus instead on the many needy people in our communities? And for those seeking to address both ends of the spectrum how do we make wise plans?

Two moments in the last week deserve re-telling that shape my response.

Firstly, on Sunday morning I was leading our service. I often find the psalm listed for morning prayer to be a great place to start our worship. This last week it was Psalm 46.

Unusually for me, in a church full of chatter and hubbub during our time together, I asked if people might be quiet - I noted my eldest son turning at the back of the room, arrested from a moment of mischief and stood still. And I started to read this ancient text, commenting on its antiquity to the gathered assembly from south Leeds.

And as I read each phrase I found myself wanting to both cry and laugh...

"God is our refuge and strength...an ever-present help in trouble..." 

"Okay," I thought, "that's a bit on the nose."

"Therefore we will not fear, though...though...though..."

And I feel the objections rise up, "Surely God...what of the elderly, the unwell...?"

"There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God,

the holy place where the Most High dwells."

I've been exploring more of Leeds recently, enjoying walks beside the River Aire. And I'm mindful that Holbeck's name derives from an ancient stream ('beck'). God loves this place. God loves this city. I'd prayed in the week before (not a prayer I'd written)...'God knew this place before it had a name!'

"God is within her, she will not fall;

God will help her at break of day."

Yes! What hope!

"Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall;

he lifts his voice, the earth melts."

Yes! What truth and insight. The nations are in uproar, in tumult, in distress and confusion. You may have seen the video of Bill Gates predicting years ago that the real threat to human life would not be because of war, but because of a virus. Coronavirus is going to cause seismic changes to society - it has exposed the fragility of our democratic, economic and social structures. Even our interdependent food supply chains are threatened, according to experts on the Food Programme (Radio 4) yesterday. This is a time of uproar, of melting, of fear and falling.

But are we to despair?

"The Lord Almighty is with us;

the God of Jacob is our fortress"

The antidote to despair is the knowledge that the living God, the Almighty one (the Pantokrater!), the God of our ancestors, and our fortress, that this one is WITH US.

"Should I stop here?" I wondered, "that's nice and neat....aw shucks, best read the whole thing..."

"Come and see the works of the LORD, the desolations he has brought on the earth.

Did God cause Coronavirus? Do the people think I'm blaming God?

"He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth; 

he breaks the bow and shatters the spear, he burns the shields with fire."

"errrr..." The Bible has this way of disorienting you enough to help you get your balance back. He is the God who brings wars to pass and wars to end. He can bring desolation and restoration. All time is in his hands.

"Be still, and know that I am God;

I will be exalted among the nations,

I will be exalted in the earth."

"Amen, amen, amen..." I felt rise up in me. And I then noticed that a particular stillness had fallen over the church congregation. It was like, even though there was already some restlessness at this reading, something went off in lots of us, a sense of coming home, of being spoken to from outside of ourselves. God's word is active. God's word allows us to encounter God...and as we prepared to sing, and laugh, and pray for each other, we were reminded to know that God is with us.

"The Lord Almighty is with us;

the God of Jacob is our fortress"

"Or is this just me...?" I panicked! Are those faces of bored indifference, or have they felt that spark as I did? Either way, "thank you God for being here, and setting our human affairs in the context of your majesty and presence."

Lesson one then - whatever is going on in the world, know God is with us.

Lesson two was a slip of the tongue earlier.

We'd had a long emergency planning meeting, and afterwards I chatted with a friend about my focus. Yesterday, I'd been into the two nearest pubs to my house, which I frequent regularly. Despite the Government's advice I visited in order to give to any who were there a church card with my number on - "Call me if you need anything!"

The temptation can often arise to be a messiah figure - to see yourself as the hero.

"I want to serve the community," I found myself saying. Followed quickly by a stream of consciousness, as though rebuking myself, "But I need to serve the church family so they can serve the community."

Of course, I'm still to do what I can. But I think church leaders would do well to remember our role to prepare people for good works. As Paul writes in Ephesians, "[God called] some to be pastors and teachers, to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up." God loves the world (John 3:16), he is not indifferent to its suffering. We must seek to serve this place that he loves.

Lesson two then - how am I helping people to serve their community?

These are unprecedented times.

The world is reeling and the church is disoriented. There is uncertainty and uproar.

How do we respond?

Firstly, we are reminded that God is with us. He has not abandoned us. Meditate on Psalm 46 - trust the power of His Word to restore our souls in the face of despair and confusion. If you want some help or guidance or support or ideas on how to read the Bible, ask!

Secondly, we are to serve our community. The church exists to worship God, make and train disciples, and to love our world. If there's anything I can do to help folk serve the community better- great! As the church adjusts to life without the normal weekly rhythms perhaps we can recapture something of this servant heart.

Be assured that I am praying for you, wherever you are, and whatever you face.

God bless you!

Obedience to God's will

I like it when God speaks very clearly to you in the Bible. Today feels like one of those days.

The three passages for morning prayer today were Psalm 77, Jeremiah 43, and Mark 3:19b-end.
The final passage ends with Jesus stating, "Whoever does God’s will is my brother and sister and mother" (Mark 3:35). Knowing God's will can sometimes prove tricky - we pray and seek guidance, hoping that He will make plain his path for us.

However, I think we get rather hung up on the unknowns for shame of our disobedience in the knowns. We are all guilty, me especially, of simply not doing what I know I should.

Jeremiah was faced with a similar situation. The remnant of the people of Judah had watched their puppet king/governor, Gedaliah, assassinated. (I want to write more about the brilliant drama from Jeremiah 35-45 in a later blog) In response to the assassination the ring-leaders of the insurrection come to Jeremiah and ask him to seek God's will. However, they had already decided what God's will should be for them. The Babylonians were bad, and posed an ongoing threat to those who remained in Judah. There was the chance they might come back and take more people away. Therefore, what was more obvious than the need to retreat to Egypt? It makes perfect sense.

"No!" - says Jeremiah. God asked the people to simply stay put, live in the land (Jer 42).

But this is not good enough - say the people. Indeed, they accuse Jeremiah of lying - of inventing the prophecy, which is rank lunacy when you consider how spot on Jeremiah had been up until then.

But isn't this so often the case. We hear the command - we fail to act. And the failure is so often because we don't like the command - it doesn't fit in with our agenda, or our understanding of the situation. It isn't, as we like to think, that we don't know God's will; we do know it, but fail to walk according to it.

I am so often amazed that I behave in this way. And as I read the Psalm this morning I saw a way out of this pitfall:

"I remembered you, God, and I groaned;
I meditated, and my spirit grew faint.
You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak.
I thought about the former days,
the years of long ago;
I remembered my songs in the night.
My heart meditated" (Psalm 77:3-6, TNIV)

Four simply words that we can use to help us discern, and (more importantly) obey God's will. And in the main it involves remembering how he has acted in the past. When I'm asked for evidence of God I can point to the historical reliability of Scripture, but I also point to my personal, real experience of God's activity in my life.

So we firstly remember (v.3). We take time to make a record of our memories. I, for instance, keep a journal, that is a permanent reminder of all that I have done. The sins especially remind me of my need of God, but his faithfulness and the settled pattern of increased holiness is a precious reminder that God is with me. Each day I commit to setting down on paper what has happened to me, the highs and lows. I think it is also important to 'count our blessings' to simply list and number the myriad ways God provides for us: homes, cars, clothes, food, sometimes good food, health, the NHS, education, free schooling, friends, family, husbands, wives, children, brothers and sisters, Doctor Who (LOL), cinema, music, ale, curries, etc, etc...on it goes. When we enter into worship we should always take with us the profound sense that God is for us; not against us.

Next we meditate. Both on God's word, but also our daily lives. I'm not very good at meditating on Scripture, and I think I need to work on it. However, just lately I've found myself writing my diary with greater purpose. I want to see past the facts and try to see what was going on in my heart and soul when I said this, or did that: meditating on life, if you will. And what I find is that God is constantly at work around me. I have found, for instance, that stopping to record what my wife said to me, and reading more closely into the feeling and emotion that surrounded what she said, can lead to some fairly straightforward insight into how my behaviour has affected her. As a result I can ask God, by His Spirit, to heal, to forgive, to guide, and especially strengthen me to remedy bad behaviours. I also see missed opportunities when I meditate - the person I should have simply chatted with to dispel feelings of sadness and loneliness; the new acquaintance who would have welcomed a discussion about God; the neighbour who needs me to be more supportive...on it goes...

Next we call to mind (the RSV uses this phrase in place of the second remember). This implies something more interogative, which for me means re-remembering. I forget LOADS from my recent past. So as well as writing a diary, I need to re-read it, going back years, months, and even days, as a reminder of how I need God and what I need prayer for. My wife is astonished I remember so little of my past, so I need to do this. Now I'm not advocating a navel-gazing introspection that immobilises us. Introspection of this sought drives us into prayer and praise. We also - I think - become more confident in accepting God's will when we see how our lives are shaped when we do or don't.

Finally, I ponder...which reminds me of the hymn lyric, "ponder anew, what the Almighty can do" (from Praise to the Lord, the Almighty). And I think this is about turning our mind to the challenges that face us now. What can we learn of God's previous faithfulness that might inspire greater trust and confidence in his future activity - even when the way seems dim, or dangerous. We also have to ask ourselves - are there any areas of my life where I am knowingly disobeying God - either his revealed will and purpose for my life, or His Word? If there are then we should apply to our resistence to His will our knowledge of all he has done, not least the work of Jesus on the cross, who presents to us, the perfect example of obedience.

Lying lips and evil lives

This mornings readings have struck me in two ways.

Firstly, Psalm 31: 18

Let their lying lips be silenced, for with pride and contempt they speak
arrogantly against the righteous.

It really hit me how strange a prayer this is for modern lips. And yet, I know that yesterday I was writing in a questionnaire about my fears regarding the shifts in the legal position of faith and belief. I contended that the media do two dangerous things. Firstly, they misreport what people of faith actually believe - often because it's too subtle; and secondly, the overall tone toward faith is that it represents a deficieny in a person. They use phrases like "out-dated" to describe what peculiar people we are. We are abberant, incomplete, somehow flawed.

And this is a lie.

I am more fully who I am meant to be. More Rolf than a non-Christian Rolf would be (perhaps he'd shave his beard off?)

So maybe this prayer is relevant - despite its strong tone.

Maybe we should petition God to silence the arrogant godless who spread false lies?


Secondly, as Judah slipped, somewhat inexorably, toward exile an 8 year old is made king. Yes, an 8 year old, Jehoiachin (2 Chronicles 36:9-10). Now it's not his age that is remarkable [Edward III was 14 when he was CROWNED King of England. Edward VI was 9 when HE was crowned.
BUT Henry VI was nine months old when he was declared King at the death of his father.]
No, age is not the thing.

It's his description.

"He did what was evil in the sight of the Lord"

What!??!! He was only 8!

But that is the testimony of Scripture - he did what was evil. Does this mean he was evil? Or was he tutored to not challenge the evil behaviours in Judah? After all, even good king Josiah stuffed up in the end when he opposed God (2 Chronicles 35:21), which he did by failing to recognise God's voice. Maybe Jehoiachin simply did the same?

He might have indulged in some immoral practices though? Soothsaying, worshipped Baal, or consulted mediums (it's pretty certain he won't have sacrificed any children!). Did he practice that which was forbidden? Surely he could be forgiven for doing what his fathers before him did?

Or maybe, more worryingly, he was, in himself, evil.

What might this do to our view of schooling, of Sunday school, of the role of parents? When I was 8 was I evil?

Not sure there are easy answers to this...

One thing is sure:
- Am I invovled in practices I know God has asked me not to?
- Do I resist or oppose God? Do I shut out the Spirit? Have I submitted to Jesus as my Lord today?
- Can I discern God's voice? Am I listening to God's words from scripture?
- Am I praying for God's protection?

Not just any old Friday, eh?

How do we live a pure life??

It's post Easter, and I've realised with horror that I've drifted an enormous amount these last few months. There is a lacklustre feel to my walk with Jesus - it's half-baked and most of the time it's simply that I don't prioritise my life to include time in his Word. I realise that many people would consider my expectations to exacting and demanding, but I know that my life craves time in His Word.

Consequently, I'm trying to stick to my plan of completing the five offices each day (but in my own way). The Common Worship lectionary has three sets of readings for each day: Main office (which can be used at communion services midweek), Morning Prayer and Evening Prayer. In addition, I use Prayer During the Day for a midday pause, and Compline (Night Prayer) before bedtime. The psalm reading in the main office is usually quite short. Yesterday's were Psalm 119:9-16. It packed a punch!

It opens with the blog title: How can a young man keep his way pure?

It gives some straightforward advice.

1. Word
It refers to living a life according to the Word, which includes adhering to its commands, hiding the Word in a person's heart. There is also a clear sense of wanting to be taught. I have been acutely challenged this last week that when I sin I become more hostile to God, my fleshly nature deconditions my moral compass. When I am in God's word, the cleansing properties enable me to not stray into sin. Verse 11 suggests that the hidden word "in my heart" is there that "I might not sin against you". Of course, Bible reading is no magical incantation that protects me as a spell would, but proximity to God's thoughts, His morals and desire for me ensures that I see sin more plainly for what it is.
Are we all committed to reading His Word?

2. Seek
The idea of seeking God with my whole heart is a real challenge. I know that I can do a lot of the word stuff from a theological perspective. It's an academic challenge. But do I do it because I want to spend time with Jesus...
This is a real challenge when my life is modelled on a pattern of prayer that is so strict. I can easily become convinced that my failure to meet deadlines or habits will guarantee sinfulness. This is where the guts come in.
I cannot relate to God with my mind alone - I am to long/yearn/desire Him. Does my soul pant for him?
The purpose of coming to God's word is that we might encounter Jesus. We see him, however, not only in the pages of the Bible, but in the world around us - the neighbour, our colleague, the beauty of nature...
Do I purpose each day to encounter Jesus?

3. Praise
The psalmist enjoins us to Praise God. Specifically we're commanded to rejoice in his Word. I think this is really helpful. When my heart grows cold and my desire for God wanes, as sin creeps in the first thing that falls off is my Bible reading. I'm forever asking myself - when did I stop reading my Bible? Was it when I sinned? Or did I sin because I stopped reading God's Word? (Not that I'm seeking a legalistic approach - just that sense of closeness to God). I can see all too often in my journal that when I stop reading my Bible, I slowly grow less enthused to seek God. However, when I return to God in praise, when I recount all he is doing in my life, suddenly I begin to desire His presence more, which in turn leads to a hunger for time in His Word.
Do we make time each day to praise Him?

These three approaches also loosely fit the mind-body(guts)-spirit(heart) motif we see in Scripture. We read God's WORD - MIND; we SEEK Him - BODY(GUTS); we praise his name - SPIRIT(HEART).

I love the way the psalms weave patterns of wholeness into our lives.

Seeing compassion

It is not very often I read all three readings at an office and find clear links, but this evening's Evening Prayer has three wonderful post-Easter passages.

Firstly, we are reminded of Phinehas (Ps. 106:30), who features in the book of Numbers. Just as God is calling the Israellites to a life of godliness, to come apart from others, there is sexual immorality with the women of Moab (Num. 25:1). Now I'm not going to launch into a detailed diatribe against sexual immorality. The purpose of the reference to Phinehas' story (Num. 25:1-13) in Psalms is as one who "interceded".

I've never thought of intercession as something we do, so much as something we pray. But perhaps this verse is a challenge. Do I love God enough and has he so transformed my life, and am I gripped by his love for me and the world, that I understand as I pray how I am the answer to my prayer. Or in this case, that I am the answer to God's will.

Solomon in Song of Songs (another book that has much to say about sexuality!) writes words for his wife:
"I am my beloved's and my beloved is mine" (SoS 6:3)

Crunch time - do I honestly know that I am my beloveds? Do I believe that God loves me? Where is evidence of God's love?

We see it in Jesus - who died for us. But also in his life. The widow's son at Nain experienced his compassion:

"When the Lord saw her, he had compassion for her and said to her "Do not weep." (Luke 7:13)

As strange as this may sound, I don't think we act as outrageously, as Phinehas does, because we do not know the real depth of God's compassion for us. Compassion means: feeling of distress and pity for the suffering or misfortune of another. Jesus had compassion for this woman. God has compassion on us; on me. The Psalmist is recounting God's saving faithfulness - which is matched by Israel's unfaithfulness.

Today, am I aware that the cross and resurrection is born out of God's great and wonderful compassion for us. Do I know that this compassion springs up from his love. And that when we truly know this love, our lives will become intercessions for others to know this.